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[white_elephant]

 

 

1. Is there anyone in your household that is constantly making noises and being obnoxious?

-- Azmondeus is generally loud and obnoxious, but it does not bother me. What bothers me are our downstairs neighbors' trio of cocker spaniels that frequently have competitions to see who can howl and bark the loudest. Not to mention the neighbors themselves, who are notoriously violent, have members that have been carted to jail for sexual harassment numerous times, who scream and yell at one another throughout the day, etc. It makes us rather anxious to leave.

 

2. What is your favorite building that you either visit regularly or that you pass often? What do you like about it?

-- Our skyline is not much to look at; it doesn't have many beautiful buildings or anything particularly aesthetically-pleasing (except, perhaps, the university). But it is my city. My beautiful, ugly city. There is a cathedral-like building I find to be nice to look at, but I couldn't tell you exactly where it is. I DO find numerous other cities more beautiful to look at, but this is my home.

 

3. Is there a certain characteristic that you notice in other people that really bothers you? If so, have you ever noticed it in yourself and do you actively try to not display that characteristic?

-- I shall have to think about this. Closed-mindedness, perhaps. Dismissing something simply because you do not believe in it. Also, those who use religion as a scapegoat, who draw reference to it to blame and judge others, and use it as fuel to the fires of their rage. As someone who was raised in a religious household, I saw many of these things firsthand, and it bothered me so immensely that I almost abstained from religion altogether. I have no issues with those with different beliefs, but hating someone because they are different from you, fearing things you do not understand, etc. is a quality I find primitive and useless. 

 

4. Would it interest you to go sit in during a court hearing? What sort of case would pique your interest most? If not, what sort of field observations might you have to take part in for your chosen college major?

-- The judicial system does not interest me at all. I am not in college, though I have applied to an art college with intention of studying it for game design. 

 

5. Think of your favorite video game. What is your favorite level/quest/town/thing to do in it?

-- I have, ever since I was a child, been in love with the world of Oddworld. Created by Oddworld Inhabitants in the late 90s, it was released for the playstation as a 2-d platforming game. But my favorite game in this universe came out years later as an Xbox game - called Stranger's Wrath. Stranger's Wrath is a 3d, third/first person game where you play as a mysterious bounty hunter trying to gain the money for an operation - but you have no idea what sort of operation he's actually trying to get, or why. But you spend the game trying to figure this out. My favorite place in the game is along the Mongo River, where it hasn't dried up. Everything is so fertile and beautiful and immersive. It's one of the few game universes that I was able to adapt to easily artistically. 

 

6. Are there any movie scenes that have stuck with you because of the perfect or seemingly out-of-place music choices?

-- Well. The end of Wolf Children Ame and Yuki. It's on Youtube. Go watch it, or purchase it on DVD. Torrent it. Do something to see this movie. It has a couple of controversial pieces, but if they don't bother you, this movie is worth seeing a thousand times over.

 

7. What sort of tattoos and tattoo art styles do you like seeing and dislike seeing? Not only for yourself but on other people, too.

-- I don't pay much attention to individual tattoos. If I have interest in them, that's one thing, but they do nothing for me either way. I tend to be a little turned off by overtly sexual tattoos, but even so I'd never mention it to the person in question and I'd probably forget about it later.

 

8. Think about your first crush or boyfriend/girlfriend and what sort of person they are now. Without taking into account how they may have hurt you specifically, just thinking about the type of person they have become, would you ever even be attracted to them now? Is it that they have changed or that your tastes have changed?

-- I do not know what type of person he has become. I only know that he streams on Twitch now and does giveaways, big events and other things. I believe the entire community he was part of does. I am glad for them, but that person did not do anything to hurt me. 

 

9. Have you ever lied to someone about why you were breaking up with them? If not, have you ever lied to someone about why you were rejecting them? What were the truth and the lie?

-- No. I have never needed to reject anybody, as nobody has ever genuinely asked me out until I was in my twenties. I was not social - I'm still not social - and I am not conventionally attractive.  As for that "truth and lie" you are speaking of, the truth was the entire situation. It is a long story, with a lot of characters involved, and perhaps I'll tell it sometime. But long story short, his "friends" (who are no longer his friends) absolutely sabotaged any hope of that relationship working. I did fail to mention that, when I finally did visit his house, the atmosphere was unpleasant and uncomfortable. But those things can change - what his friends did, well - it still leaves a bad taste in my mouth six years later.

 

10. When you were a kid was a big event made of “school clothes shopping” for you and your family?

-- It was not a "big event", but it was really the only time I received new clothing. I grew up somewhat impoverished, so I wasn't able to get much - but it was always something I looked forward to.

 

11. Do you like using websites that keep track of the books, music, films, and television that you consume and give you recommendations (e.g., last.fm or goodreads)?

-- I do enjoy sites like that - such as Goodreads, but at the moment they sadden me. I cannot access a library at this time, and the nearest book store is a good ride away. That will change, I hope, when we move - and I can actually start buying books again.

 

12. Is there an insult or comment (or several) that you have been told that’s stuck with you and still sort of creeps up on your self esteem to this day?

-- This is something that plagues me. I remember being told how ugly I was, how I looked "like a dog", and other various insults. I'd rather not get into them any further. 

 

13. Have you ever broken up with a friend or roommate? Have you ever been broken up with by a friend? Did you think that it was over a stupid reason or was it something necessary?

-- My biggest social issue is my only talent: my ability to run away when I am socially pressured. It is the only thing I am good at - and I am so very good at this that I have lost numerous potential friends, online social circles, and entire World of Warcraft guilds. They are always stupid reasons as I can easily patch up these relationships. But I'm too afraid. My father has no idea how I feel about him because my anxiety would flare up whenever I even spoke or thought of him. It was not his fault, but living with him was such pure hell that I almost shut him out of my life. And when he died, well - I do feel as if I am to blame.

 

14. Do you ever worry or feel a strong sense that you will die a tragically young death?

-- Not particularly. But I do feel that my life will be somewhat different somehow.

 

15. When you get into an argument about a fact that can be proven with an internet search, do you go the length to Google it and make sure your opponent admits you were right, or can you just let it go and live with knowing you’re right, anyway?

-- It is important to be informed. I have been in both situations - where someone slams me with facts; but I have also been the one to provide those facts. It is a terrible blow to one's ego, knowing one is factually wrong - but it is a necessary feeling. It is never a bad idea to find answers as it is always at your fingertips. But it depends on the situation - if it is not worth arguing with someone, then I'm not going to waste my energy. 

 

16. How do you feel about children swearing?

-- I find it a bit disappointing. I dislike children in general, but I find myself mostly encountering them in online games (when Azmondeus plays). 

 

17. Is there something that you choose to believe in because you think it’s more fun to consider the possibility, rather than there being concrete evidence (e.g., ghosts)?

-- Oh, there are many things like this. While I understand there is a scientific explanation for all things (we just haven't learned how to interpret them yet), that doesn't make them any less "magical". I have numerous things that have happened to me that have shaped me into the person I am today - some metaphysical.

 

18. Does it bother you to be around people that are not mentally stimulating? How about people that have no goals?

-- It bothers me to be around people I do not know. Of those I know, I do try to surround myself with those that are mentally stimulating, if only to have something interesting and worth talking about. Most people, I've found, actually have interesting stories and personalities. It just depends on whether or not I can stand actually speaking to them. Overtly sexual people tend to rub me the wrong way.

 

19. When you set your mind on doing something that for some reason does not happen or that is just out of the cards, how easy is it for you to stop holding onto that hope or stop being bitter that things didn’t go as you’d wanted?

-- Not everything works out the way you want it to. That's life. You pick yourself up and you move on. Chances are, if you have worked towards that goal and still failed, it's likely you've found something wonderful, learned something new, etc. You can apply what you've gained to a new element in your life. But it is perfectly normal to be disappointed.

 

20. Do you like things that are pink and pastel? If not, what sort of patterns and palettes catch your eye?

-- I like all colors. If I can pair it with another color to create a theme, that makes it even better. It is difficult to pick a single color, but I have been picking themes for each room of the house we are moving to, and my favorite may just be the kitchen and bedroom. The bedroom will have a combination of dark teal, black, and white. The kitchen will be very bright and airy, with kind of a turquoise/berry red theme with yellow accents, white cabinets, etc. 

 

21. If you have a chosen college major, was there a moment when it just clicked with you, like “THIS is definitely what I want to study. This is what my whole life has been about.”?

-- My original intended major was "Game Art & Design". But private colleges are expensive, and I could not handle that so I cancelled my application. I have never felt my entire life was about going to college and studying something. I have so many interests that I could not possible single one out above the others and that makes it very hard for me to settle on something. I have a job that is easy, comfortable, and I have plenty of free time most of the year. Not to mention, it pays well. Currently I have no need for college, but that may change. It is far too expensive at this time.

 

22. Is there something that you feel like you’ve recently outgrown? Are you sad to leave this part of you behind or does it not even matter now that you’re no longer interested in it?

-- I have outgrown many things, but recently? I am not sure.

 

23. What is something that you have quit (e.g, a team, a class, or learning a skill) and why did you give up on it?

-- I suppose I quit my martial arts classes years ago. I hate bringing it up, to be honest, as it is still very much part of my mental makeup. I spent close to a decade training in Taekwondo. I was powerful. I was fast. But I was young, and foolish. No one had ever really taught me about eating healthy - because I never did (I didn't have to; my metabolism demolished ANYTHING I ate). So when my mother went on vacation and left my father and myself at home to ourselves, well... My mother had always made sure I didn't overeat or that I at least went to practice whenever possible, and had no qualms taking me there. My father, on the other hand, hated it, and complained often. So I stopped going as I could no longer handle it. He also had no interest in telling me what to eat and what not to eat, so junk food was the predominant type of food in the house. And Nutella. So, with eight weeks at home, doing nothing (it was summer), eating Nutella, I gained weight - over twenty pounds in that time. And I had no idea until my mother came home, told me how fat I'd gotten (which shattered my self confidence), and took me back. My master had called not knowing where I was, and when I came back everyone was horrified. I was so ashamed of myself that I never recovered, dropped out, and in a way I am still hurting from that event. I have spent the last decade trying to lose weight, trying to recover - but I have not succeeded. I have lost plenty of weight but I keep gaining it back. But I am slowly making progress.

 

24. Which of your favorite films is the oldest? How did you come across it, if it came out before you were born?

-- I honestly cannot think at this time.

 

25. What is one totally arbitrary and silly thing that you judge people on?

-- Being a pig. Admittedly it is the one thing that irritates me. Being asexual, I have no interest or understanding of physical and sexual attraction - so when others talk about it I am quite confused. It does not bother me, however, until people become lewd - and then I will walk away from the situation.